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Chapter 38

           Allthetreacheriesofmodernloveseemedbeautiful,andIhadmygreatsecret,safe,lockedaway.ItwasGreeceagain,theAlexandrianGreeceofCavafy:therewereonlydegreesofaestheticpleasure;ofbeautyindecadence.MoralitywasaNorthEuropeanlie.Therewasalongsilence.Shesaid,"Wherearewe,Nicko?""Howdoyoumean?"Shewasleaningonherelbow,staringatme,butIwouldn’tlookroundather."NowIknowofcourse…"Sheshrugged."ButIdidn’tcometobeyouroldchum."Iputmyheadinmyhands."Alison,I’msickofwomen,sickoflove,sickofsex,sickofeverything.Idon’tknowwhatIwant.Ishouldneverhaveaskedyoutocome."Shelookeddown,seeminglytacitlytoagree."Thefactis…well,IsupposeIhaveasortofnostalgiaforasisteratthemoment.IfyousayfuckthatIunderstand.Ihavenorightnottounderstand.""Allright."Shelookedupagain."Sister.Butonedayyou’llbecured.""Idon’tknow.Ijustdon’tknow."Ilookedsuitablydistraught."Lookpleasegoaway,curseme,anything,butI’madeadmanatthemoment."Iwenttothewindow."It’sallmyfault.Ican’taskyoutospendthreedayswithadeadman.""AdeadmanIonceloved."Alongsilencecreptbetweenus.Butthenshebrisklysatupandgotoffthebed;wentandswitchedonthelightandcombedherhair.SheproducedthejetearringsIhadleftthatlastdayinLondonandputthemon;thenlipstick.IthoughtofLily,oflipswithoutlipstick;coolness,mystery,elegance.

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