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Chapter 77

           ThelastpersonintheworldIhadwantedtohurt.AsifIhadkickedanemotionallystarvingmongrelinitspoor,thinribs.Aviolentreactionsetonme,bornofself-disgustandresentment.AllmylifeIhadbeenasturdycontra-suggestible.NowIwassoft;remoterfromfreedomthanIhadeverbeen.IthoughtwithaleapofexcitementoflifewithoutAlison,ofsettingoutintotheblueagain…alone,butfree.Evennoble,sinceIwascondemnedtoinflictpain,whateverIdid.ToAmerica,perhaps;toSouthAmerica.Freedomwasmakingsomeabruptchoiceandactingonit;wasasithadbeenatOxford,allowingone’sinstinct-cum-willtoffingoneoffatatangent,solitaryintoanewsituation.Hazard,Ihadtohavehazard.IhadtobreakoutofthiswaitingroomIwasin.Iwalkedthroughtheuninspiringrooms.TheBowchinoiserieplatehungoverthemantelpiece.Thefamilyagain;orderandinvolvement.Imprisonment.Outside,rain;agrayscuddingsky.IstareddownCharlotteStreetanddecidedtoleaveKemp’s,atonce,thatday.ToprovetomyselfthatIcouldmove,Icouldcope,Iwasfree.IwentdowntoseeKemp.Shetookmyannouncementcoldly.IwonderedifsheknewaboutJojo,becauseIcouldseeastonyglintofcontemptinhereyesassheshruggedoffmyexcusethatIhaddecidedtorentacottageinthecountry."YoutakingJojo,areyou?""No.We’rebringingittoanend.""You’rebringingittoanend."SheknewaboutJojo."Allright.I’mbringingittoanend.""Tiredofslumming.Thoughtyouwouldbe.""Thinkagain.

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