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Chapter 54

           ioObservation-Post,ArgolisCommand,situatedonthecapeknownasBouranionthesouthcoastoftheislandofPhraxos,beingoffduty,weregivenpermissiontoswim.At12:45…Conchisspoke."Readthelastparagraph."IswearbyGodandbyallthatissacredtomethattheaboveeventshavebeenexactlyandtruthfullydescribed.IobservedthemallwithmyowneyesandIdidnotintervene.ForthisreasonIcondemnmyselftodeath.Ilookedup."AgoodGerman,""No.Unlessyouthinksuicideisgood.Itisnot.Despairisadisease,andasevilasWimmel’sdisease."IsuddenlyrememberedBlakewhatwasit,Soonermurderaninfantinitscradlethannurseunacteddesires.AtextIhadonceoftenusedtoseducemyselfaswellasothers.Conchiswenton."Youmustmakeupyourmind,Nicholas.Eitheryouenlistunderthekapetan,thatmurdererwhoknewonlyoneword,buttheonlyword,oryouenlistunderAnton.Youwatchandyoudespair.Oryoudespairandyouwatch.Inthefirstcase,youcommitphysicalsuicide;inthesecond,moral.""Icanstillfeelpityforhim.""Youcan.Butoughtyouto?"IwasthinkingofAlison,andIknewIhadnochoice.IfeltpityforherasIfeltpityforthatunknownGerman’sfaceonafewfeetofflickeringfilm.Andperhapsanadmiration,thatadmirationwhichisreallyenvyofthosewhohavegonefurtheralongone’sownroad:theyhadbothdespairedenoughtowatchnomore.Whileminewasthemoralsuicide.Isaid,"Yes.Hecouldn’thelphimself.""Thenyouaresick,myyoungfriend.Youlivebydeath.Notbylife.

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