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Chapter 52

           Bythissinisterelision,thisslippingfromtrueremorse,thebeliefthatthesufferingwehaveprecipitatedoughttoennobleus,oratleastmakeuslessignoblefromthenon,todisguisedself-forgiveness,thebeliefthatsufferinginsomewayennobleslife,sothattheprecipitationofpaincomes,bysuchacockeyedalgebra,toequaltheennoblement,oratanyratetheenrichment,oflife,bythischaracteristicallytwentieth-centuryretreatfromcontentintoform,frommeaningintoappearance,fromethicsintoaesthetics,fromaquaintounda,Idulledthepainofthataccusingdeath;andhardenedmyselftosaynothingofitatBourani.IwasstilldeterminedtotellJulie,butattherighttimeandplace,whentheexchangeratebetweenconfessionandthesympathyitevokedlookedlikelytobehigh.BeforeImovedoffItookouttheheadedBarclay’sletterandreaditagain.IthadtheeffectofmakingmefeelmoreindulgenttowardsConchisthanIhadintendedtobe.Isawnoobjectionnowtoafewsmalllastdissimulationsonbothsides.Itwaslikethefirstday.Thebeinguninvited,unsure;thegoingthroughthegate,approachingthehouseinitssilentsunlitmystery,goingroundthecolonnade;andtheretooitwasthesame,theteatablecoveredinmuslin.Noonepresent.Theseaandtheheatthroughthearches,thetiledfloor,thesilence,thewaiting.AndalthoughIwasnervousfordifferentreasons,eventhatwasthesame.Iputmyduffiebagonthecanesetteeandwentintothemusicroom.Afigurestoodupfrombehindtheharpsichord.

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