Dr. Seward’s Diary

           25October. —HowImissmyphonograph! Towriteadiarywithapenisirksometome!ButVanHelsingsaysImust. WewereallwildwithexcitementyesterdaywhenGodalminggothistelegramfromLloyd’s. Iknownowwhatmenfeelinbattlewhenthecalltoactionisheard. Mrs.Harker,aloneofourparty,didnotshowanysignsofemotion. Afterall,itisnotstrangethatshedidnot,forwetookspecialcarenottoletherknowanythingaboutit,andwealltriednottoshowanyexcitementwhenwewereinherpresence. Inolddaysshewould,Iamsure,havenoticed,nomatterhowwemighthavetriedtoconcealit. Butinthiswaysheisgreatlychangedduringthepastthreeweeks. Thelethargygrowsuponher,andthoughsheseemsstrongandwell,andisgettingbacksomeofhercolour,VanHelsingandIarenotsatisfied. Wetalkofheroften.Wehavenot,however,saidawordtotheothers. ItwouldbreakpoorHarker’sheart,certainlyhisnerve,ifheknewthatwehadevenasuspiciononthesubject. VanHelsingexamines,hetellsme,herteethverycarefully,whilstsheisinthehypnoticcondition,forhesaysthatsolongastheydonotbegintosharpenthereisnoactivedangerofachangeinher. Ifthischangeshouldcome,itwouldbenecessarytotakesteps! Webothknowwhatthosestepswouldhavetobe,thoughwedonotmentionourthoughtstoeachother.Weshouldneitherofusshrinkfromthetask,awfulthoughitbetocontemplate. "Euthanasia"isanexcellentandacomfortingword! Iamgratefultowhoeverinventedit.