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           Nemursays,withmuchmorethantwicemyI.Q.of70,thenmaybepeoplewilllikemeandbemyfriends.

           I’mnotsurewhatI.Q.isanyway.Prof.Nemursaiditwassomethingthatmeasuredhowintelligentyouwere—likeascaleinthedrugstoreweighspounds.ButDr.StrausshadabigargumentwithhimandsaidanI.Q.didn’tweighintelligenceatall.HesaidanI.Q.showedhowmuchintel­ligenceyoucouldget,likethenumbersontheoutsideofameasuringcup.Youstillhadtofillthecupupwithstuff.

           WhenIaskedBurtSeldon,whogivesmemyintelli­gencetestsandworkswithAlgernon,hesaidthatsomepeoplewouldsaybothofthemwerewrongandaccordingtothethingshe’sbeenreadingupon,theI.Q.measuresalotofdifferentthingsincludingsomeofthethingsyoulearnedalreadyanditreallyisn’tagoodmeasureofintelli­genceatall.

           SoIstilldon’tknowwhatI.Q.is,andeverybodysaysit’ssomethingdifferent.Mineisaboutahundrednow,andit’sgoingtobeoverahundredandfiftysoon,butthey’llstillhavetofillmeupwiththestuff.Ididn’twanttosayanything,butIdon’tseehowiftheydon’tknowwhat’llis,orwhereitis—howtheyknowhowmuchofityou’vegot.

           ProfNemursaysIhavetotakeaRorschachTestthedayaftertomorrow.Iwonderwhatthatis.

           April17

           Ihadanightmarelastnight,andthismorning,afterIwokeup,Ifree-associatedthewayDr.StrausstoldmetodowhenIremembermydreams.Thinkaboutthedreamandjustletmymindwanderuntilotherthoughtscomeupinmymind.Ikeepondoingthatuntilmymindgoesblank.Dr.