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           SowetalkedaboutitandIgotafunnyfeelingwhileIwastalk­ing,coldandsweaty,andabuzzinginsidemyheadandIthoughtIwasgoingtothrowup.MaybebecauseIalwaysthoughtitwasdirtyandbadtotalkaboutthat.ButDr.Strausssaidwhathappenedtomeafterthepartywasawetdream,andit’sanaturalthingthathappenstoboys.

           SoevenifI’mgettingintelligentandlearningalotofnewthings,hethinksI’mstillaboyaboutwomen.It’sconfusing,butI’mgoingtofindoutallaboutmylife.

           April15

           I’mreadingalotthesedaysandalmostevery­thingisstayinginmymind.Besideshistoryandgeogra­phyandarithmetic,MissKinniansaysIshouldstartlearningforeignlanguages.Prof.NemurgavemesomemoretapestoplaywhileIsleep.Istilldon’tknowhowtheconsciousandunconsciousmindworks,butDr.Strausssaysnottoworryyet.HemademepromisethatwhenIstartlearningcollegesubjectsinacoupleofweeksIwon’treadanybooksonpsychology—thatis,untilhegivesmepermission.Hesaysitwillconfusemeandmakemethinkaboutpsychologicaltheoriesinsteadofaboutmyownideasandfeelings.Butit’sokaytoreadnovels.ThisweekIreadTheGreatGatsby,AnAmericanTragedy,andLookHomeward,Angel.Ineverknewaboutmenandwomendoingthingslikethat.

           April16

           Ifeelalotbettertoday,butI’mstillangrythatallthetimepeoplewerelaughingandmakingfunofme.

           WhenIbecomeintelligentthewayProf.