Цветы для Элджернона
PROGRESS REPORT 9
StrausssaysthatitmeansI’vereachedapointwheremysubconsciousistryingtoblockmyconsciousfromremembering.It’sawallbetweenthepresentandthepast.SometimesthewallstaysupandsometimesitbreaksdownandIcanrememberwhat’sbehindit.
Likethismorning.
ThedreamwasaboutMissKinnianreadingmyprogressreports.InthedreamIsitdowntowritebutIcan’twriteorreadanymore.It’sallgone.IgetfrightenedsoIaskGimpyatthebakerytowriteforme.ButwhenMissKinnianreadsthereportshegetsangryandtearsthepagesupbecausethey’vegotdirtywordsinthem.
WhenIgethomeProf.NemurandDr.Straussarewaitingformeandtheygivemeabeatingforwritingdirtythingsintheprogressreport.WhentheyleavemeIpickupthetornpagesbuttheyturnintolacevalentineswithbloodalloverthem.
ItwasahorribledreambutIgotoutofbedandwroteitalldownandthenIstartedtofreeassociate.
Bakery...baking...theurn...someonekickingme...falldown...bloodyallover...writing...bigpencilonaredvalentine...alittlegoldheart...alocket...achain...allcoveredwithblood...andhe’slaughingatme...
Thechainisfromalocket...spinningaround...flashingthesunlightintomyeyes.AndIliketowatchitspin...watchthechain...allbunchedupandtwistingandspinning...andalittlegirliswatchingme.
HernameisMissKin—ImeanHarriet.
"Harriet...Harriet...weallloveHarriet."
Andthenthere’snothing.It’sblankagain.
MissKinnianreadingmyprogressreportsovermyshoulder.
