Пятьдесят оттенков серого

           WhatifIdosayyes,andinthreemonths’timehesaysno,he’shadenoughoftryingtomoldmeintosomethingI’mnot?HowwillIfeel?I’llhaveemotionallyinvestedthreemonths,doingthingsthatI’mnotsureIwanttodo.Andifhethensaysno,agreementover,howcouldIcopewiththatlevelofrejection?Perhapsit’sbesttobackawaynowwithwhatself-esteemIhavereasonablyintact.

           Butthethoughtofnotseeinghimagainisagonizing.Howhashegottenundermyskinsoquickly?Itcan’tjustbethesex…canit?Idashthetearsfrommyeyes.Idon’twanttoexaminemyfeelingsforhim.I’mfrightenedwhatI’lluncoverifIdo.WhatamIgoingtodo?

           Iparkoutsideourduplex.Nolightson.Katemustbeout.I’mrelieved.Idon’twanthertocatchmecryingagain.AsIundress,IwakeupthemeanmachineandsittinginmyinboxisamessagefromChristian.

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           From:ChristianGrey

           Subject:Tonight

           Date:May25201122:01

           To:AnastasiaSteele

           Idon’tunderstandwhyyouranthisevening.IsincerelyhopeIansweredallyourquestionstoyoursatisfaction.IknowIhavegivenyouagreatdealtocontemplate,andIferventlyhopethatyouwillgivemyproposalyourseriousconsideration.Ireallywanttomakethiswork.Wewilltakeitslow.

           Trustme.

           ChristianGrey

           CEO,GreyEnterprisesHoldings,Inc.

           Hise-mailmakesmeweepmore.Iamnotamerger.Iamnotanacquisition.Readingthis,Imightaswellbe.Idon’treply.Ijustdon’tknowwhattosaytohim.IfumbleintomyPJsand,wrappinghisjacketaroundme,Iclimbintobed