Цветы для Элджернона

           I’vegivenupusingthetypewriter.Coordinationistoobad.FromnowonI’llhavetowriteoutthesereportsinlonghand.

           IthoughtalotaboutthethingsAlicesaid,andthenithitmethatifIkeptonreadingandlearningnewthings,evenwhileIwasforgettingtheoldones,Iwouldbeabletokeepsomeofmyintelligence.Iwasonadownescalatornow.IfIstoodstillI’dgoallthewaytothebottom,butifIstartedtorunupmaybeIcouldatleaststayinthesameplace.Theimportantthingwastokeepmovingupwardnomatterwhathappened.

           SoIwenttothelibraryandgotoutalotofbookstoread.I’vebeenreadingalotnow.Mostofthebooksaretoohardforme,butIdon’tcare.AslongasIkeepreadingI’lllearnnewthingsandIwon’tforgethowtoread.That’sthemostimportantthing.IfIkeepreading,maybeIcanholdmyown.

           Dr.StrausscamearoundthedayafterAliceleft,soIguessshetoldhimaboutme.HepretendedallhewantedwastheprogressreportsbutItoldhimIwouldsendthem.Idon’twanthimcomingaroundhere.Itoldhimhedoesn’thavetobeworriedaboutmebecausewhenIthinkIwon’tbeabletotakecareofmyselfanymoreI’llgetonatrainandgotoWarren.

           ItoldhimI’dratherjustgobymyselfwhenthetimecomes.

           ItriedtotalktoFay,butIcanseeshe’safraidofme.IguessshefiguresI’vegoneoutofmymind.Lastnightshecamehomewithsomebody—helookedveryyoung.

           Thismorningthelandlady,Mrs.Mooney,cameupwithabowlofhotchickensoupandsomechicken.