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Chapter 19
I’mgratefulthatKate’splumdressissoclingyandhangstothetopofmyknees.
WespeedupInterstate5,bothofusquiet,nodoubtinhibitedbyTaylor’ssteadypresenceinthefront.Christian’smoodisalmosttangibleandseemstoshift,thehumordissipatingslowlyasweheadnorth.He’sbrooding,staringoutthewindow,andIknowhe’sslippingawayfromme.Whatishethinking?Ican’taskhim.WhatcanIsayinfrontofTaylor?
“Wheredidyoulearntodance?”Iasktentatively.Heturnstogazeatme,hiseyesunreadablebeneaththeintermittentlightofthepassingstreetlamps.
“Doyoureallywanttoknow?”herepliessoftly.
Myheartsinks,andnowIdon’tbecauseIcanguess.
“Yes,”Imurmurreluctantly.
“Mrs.Robinsonwasfondofdancing.”
Oh,myworstsuspicionsconfirmed.Shehastaughthimwell,andthethoughtdepressesme—there’snothingIcanteachhim.Ihavenospecialskills.“Shemusthavebeenagoodteacher.”
“Shewas.”
Myscalpprickles.Didshehavethebestofhim?Beforehebecamesoclosed?Ordidshebringhimoutofhimself?Hehassuchafun,playfulside.IsmileinvoluntarilyasIrecallbeinginhisarmsashespunmearoundhislivingroom,sounexpected,andhehasmypantiessomewhere.
Andthenthere’stheRedRoomofPain.Irubmywristsreflexively—thinstripsofplasticwilldothattoagirl.Shetaughthimallthat,too,orruinedhim,dependingonone’spointofview.OrperhapshewouldhavefoundhiswaythereanywayinspiteofMrs.R.Irealize,inthatmoment,thatIhateher.