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           Slowly,slowly,mythoughtsstartedtobreakpastthatbrickwallofpain.Toplan.ForIhadnochoicesnowbutone:togotothemirroredroomanddie.Ihadnoguarantees,nothingtogivetokeepmymotheralive.IcouldonlyhopethatJameswouldbesatisfiedwithwinningthegame,thatbeatingEdwardwouldbeenough.Despairgrippedme;therewasnowaytobargain,nothingIcouldofferorwithholdthatcouldinfluencehim.ButIstillhadnochoice.Ihadtotry.

           IpushedtheterrorbackaswellasIcould.Mydecisionwasmade.Itdidnogoodtowastetimeagonizingovertheoutcome.Ihadtothinkclearly,becauseAliceandJasperwerewaitingforme,andevadingthemwasabsolutelyessential,andabsolutelyimpossible.

           IwassuddenlygratefulthatJasperwasgone.Ifhehadbeenheretofeelmyanguishinthelastfiveminutes,howcouldIhavekeptthemfrombeingsuspicious?Ichokedbackthedread,theanxiety,triedtostifleit.Icouldn’tafforditnow.Ididn’tknowwhenhewouldreturn.

           Iconcentratedonmyescape.Ihadtohopethatmyfamiliaritywiththeairportwouldturntheoddsinmyfavor.Somehow,IhadtokeepAliceaway...

           IknewAlicewasintheotherroomwaitingforme,curious.ButIhadtodealwithonemorethinginprivate,beforeJasperwasback.

           IhadtoacceptthatIwouldn’tseeEdwardagain,notevenonelastglimpseofhisfacetocarrywithmetothemirrorroom.Iwasgoingtohurthim,andIcouldn’tsaygoodbye.Iletthewavesoftorturewashoverme,havetheirwayforatime.