Таинственная история Билли Миллигана
Chapter 24
Daybydayhegrewweakerinthisplace.Hecouldnotunderstandthehateandjealousydisplayedbytheauthorityfiguresofthisinstitution.TheyalsoprovokedthepatientstohurthimandmakeRagenfight,butBillycouldholdRagenback...butnotanymore.Thedoctorssaybadthingsaboutus,andwhathurtsthemostistheyareright.
We,I,amafreak,amisfit,abiologicalerror.Weallhatethisplacebutitiswherewebelong.Weweren’tacceptedverywell,werewe?
Ragenisstoppingeverythingforgood.Hehasto.Hesaidifyoudonotspeak,youdonodamagetoanyoneontheoutsideorinside.Noonecanblameusforanything.Ragenstoppedthehearing.Thespanofattentionwillbeturnedinwardanditwillenforcethetotalblock.
Byshuttingouttherealworldwecanlivepeacefullyinours.
Weknowthataworldwithoutpainisaworldwithoutfeeling...butaworldwithoutfeelingisaworldwithoutpain.
Kevin
InOctober1980,theStateDepartmentofMentalHealthreleasedthenewsthatLimawastobephasedoutasastatehospitalforthecriminallyinsaneandwouldbecomeaprisonundertheDepartmentofCorrection.
OnceagaintheissueofwhereMilliganmightbetransferredmadeheadlines.Thepossibilitythathemightbesentbackto1Athensortoanotherminimum-securityhospitalledProsecutorJimO’Gradytodemandthatunderthenewlaw,BillybesentbacktoColumbusforhissanityreviewhearing.
