Таинственная история Билли Миллигана
Chapter 23
Acockroachabout3centimeterslongandblackhadbeentapdancingonmylumbars.Thegrossinsectwasharmlessbutshocking.Therodentdidmakeupmymindforme.Icamebacktothissideofrealitybutwasstillthinkingaboutmyinner-debate.Ididletthehideouslittlethinggo.SecretlyIwascontentwiththeawarenessIhadofmyselfproudofthementalandphysicalvictory.Iamnotamentalbasketcase.Istillhadsomefightinme.IhavenotlostbutIhavenotwon.IbrokeawindowandIdon’tevenknowwhy.
Hiewriterreceivedaletter,datedJanuary30,fromanother
patientatLima:
DearSir,
Letmegettothemainpoint.WithintwentyfourhoursofBill’svisitbyhisattorney,BillwastransferredfromI.T.U.5toI.T.U.9.Nineisastrongerwardthanfive.
Thedecisionforthetransferwasmadebythe"teampersonnel"inthedailyteammeeting.ItcameasasurpriseandshockforBill,yethehandleditwell...
TTieonlytimeBillandIcanconversenowisatrecreation.ThisiswhereIfoundoutthatthepressureonhimwasonfull.Hesayshisvisits,mail,phonecallsareallcutoffuntilhefireshisattorneys.Hehasbeentoldtostopthebook,andisharassedbyattendants.(ItoohavebeenaccusedofaidingBillonthebookandhaverealizedthatthesepeopledon’twantthebookout.)
IwastoldBillwillbestayingtheremainderofhistimehereonastrongward..
