Таинственная история Билли Миллигана

           "

           "Aw.C’mon."

           "No,Imeanit.You’redifferentfromtheotherkidshere.Ilikeboysthatdon’tjusthavetheirmindsononething."

           Sheputherhandonhisleg.

           Philipjumpedback."Hey,whatchadoin’thatfor?"

           "Don’tyoulikegirls,Billy?"

           "SureIdo.Iain’tnoqueer.It’sjustI—Idon’t—I—"

           "Youlookrealupset,Billy.What’swrong?"

           Hesatdownnexttoheragain."Idon’tgoinmuchfuhdatsexstuff."

           "Howcome?"

           "Well,"hesaid."We—Imean,whenIwaslittle,Igotrapedbyaman."*

           Shelookedathim,shocked."Ithoughtonlygirlscouldberaped."

           Philipshookhishead."Well,yougotanotherthinkcornin’.Iwasbeatandraped.Anditdidsomethin’tomyhead,Icantellya.Idreamaboutitalot.Apartofmedoes.AllmylifeIalwaysthoughtsexwassomethin’painfulanddirty."

           "Youmeanyouneverhadregularsexwithagirl?"

           "Iain’tneverhadregularsexwithnoone."

           "Itdoesn’thurt,Billy."

           Heblushedashepulledaway.

           "Let’sgoswimming,"shesaid.

           "Yeah,greatidea,"hesaid,jumpingupandtakingarunningdiveintothepond.