Таинственная история Билли Миллигана

           SometimesBillyspokeofhisdeadfatherandsaidhewouldliketobeanentertainerwhenhegrewup.Hespokeofhowbadthingswereathome.Butoften,PrincipalYoungrealized,theboywasinatrance.HewouldleadBillytohiscarandtakehimhome.Afteragreatmanyoftheseepisodes,PrincipalYoungreferredhimtotheFairfieldCountyClinicforGuidanceandMentalHealth.

           Dr.HaroldT.Brown,psychiatristanddirector,firstsawBillyMilliganonMarch6,1970.Brown,aslightmanwithgraymuttonchopsandarecedingchin,gazedattheboythroughblack-rimmedglasses.Hesawaneat-looking,slenderfifteen-year-oldinapparentgoodhealth,sittingpassively,neithertensenoranxious,butavoidinglookinghimintheeyes.

           "Hisvoiceissoft,"Dr.Brownwroteinhisnotes,"withlittlemodulation,almosttrancelike."

           Billystaredathim.

           "Whatareyourfeelings?"Brownaskedhim.

           "Likeadreamthatcomesandgoes.Mydadhatesme.Ihearhimscreaming.Ihavearedlightinmyroom.Iseeagardenandaroad—flowers,water,treesandnobodytheretoyellatme.Iseelotsofthingsthataren’treal.There’sadoorwithallthelocksonit,andsomeoneispoundingtogetout.Iseeawomanfallingdown,andsuddenlyshe’sturningintoapileofmetalandIcan’treachher.Hey,I’mtheonlykidwhocantakeatripwithoutLSD."

           "Howdoyoufeelaboutyourparents?"askedBrown.