Таинственная история Билли Миллигана

           "

           "IwanttoaskyouandalsogetArthursopinionabout

           whetherperhapsBillyisstrongernow,notsuicidal,andcouldmaybedealwithmorethings—"

           "Hesnotsuicidal."

           Thevoicecameoutinasoft,clear,upper-classBritishaccent,andDr.GeorgeknewArthurhaddecidedtocomeoutandspeakforhimself.HehadnotseenArthursincetheexaminationwithDr.WilburandothersthatSundaymorningatthejail.Tryingtoremaincomposedandshownosurprise,hecontinuedtheconversation:"Butdoeshestillhavetobehandledwithkidgloves?Ishestillvulnerable?"

           "Yes,"Arthursaid,placingthetipsofhisfingerstogether."Easilyfrightened.Veryparanoid."

           Dr.Georgepointedoutthathehadn’treallymeanttotalkaboutChalmeratthatpoint,butthatBillyhadseemedtoneedtotalkaboutit.

           "Youtouchedamemoryofthepast,"Arthursaid,choosinghiswordscarefully,"andthat’sthefirstthingthatpoppedintohismind.Commonfeartriumphedaswell,andthatwasmorethanenoughtoputhimtosleep.TherewasnothingIcoulddotocontrolit.Ilethimwakeupbeforehecame—"

           "Areyouawareofallthathesayswhenhe’sawake?""Partiallyandnotalways.Ican’talwaystellexactlywhathe’sthinking.Butwhenheisthinking,Icansensefear.Forsomereason,hecan’tactuallyhearwhatI’msayingtohimallveryclearly.