Цветы для Элджернона

           Whydidhe?Anyway,thatismymemoryofthetime,clearerandmorecompletethanany­thingIhaveeverexperiencedbefore.Likelookingoutofthekitchenwindowearlywhenthemorninglightisstillgray.I’vecomealongwaysincethen,andIoweitalltoDr.StraussandProfessorNemur,andtheotherpeoplehereatBeekman.ButwhatmustFrankandGimpythinkandfeelnow,seeinghowI’vechanged?

           April22

           Peopleatthebakeryarechanging.Notonlyignoringme.Icanfeelthehostility.Donnerisarrangingformetojointhebaker’sunion,andI’vegottenanotherraise.Therottenthingisthatallofthepleasureisgonebecausetheothersresentme.Inaway,Ican’tblamethem.Theydon’tunderstandwhathashappenedtome,andIcan’ttellthem.PeoplearenotproudofmethewayIexpected—notatall.

           Still,I’vegottohavesomeonetotalkto.I’mgoingtoaskMissKinniantogotoamovietomorrownighttocel­ebratemyraise.IfIcangetupthenerve.

           April24

           ProfessorNemurfinallyagreedwithDr.StraussandmethatitwillbeimpossibleformetowritedowneverythingifIknowitsimmediatelyreadbypeopleatthelab.I’vetriedtobecompletelyhonestabouteverything,nomatterwhoIwastalkingabout,buttherearethingsIcan’tputdownunlessIcankeepthemprivate—atleastforawhile.

           Now,I’mallowedtokeepbacksomeofthesemorepersonalreports,butbeforethefinalreporttotheWelbergFoundation,ProfessorNemurwillreadthroughevery­thingtodecidewhatpartofitshouldbepublished.