Цветы для Элджернона

           You’reherevoluntarily.Ifyoudon’twantto—"

           "That’sallright.Goahead.Dealoutthecards.Butdon’ttellmewhatyoufindout."

           Hedidn’thaveto.

           IknewenoughabouttheRorschachtoknowthatitwasn’twhatyousawinthecardsthatcounted,buthowyoureactedtothem.Aswholes,orparts,withmovementorjustmotionlessfigures,withspecialattentiontothecolorspotsorignoringthem,withlotsofideasorjustafewstereotypedresponses.

           "It’snotvalid,"Isaid."Iknowwhatyou’relookingfor.IknowthekindofresponsesI’msupposedtohave,tocreateacertainpictureofwhatmymindislike.AllI’vegottodois..."

           Helookedupatme,waiting.

           "AllI’vegottodois..."

           ButthenithitmelikeafistagainstthesideofmyheadthatIdidn’trememberwhatIhadtodo.ItwasasifIhadbeenlookingatthewholethingclearlyontheblack­boardofmymind,butwhenIturnedtoreadit,partofithadbeenerasedandtherestdidn’tmakesense.

           Atfirst,Irefusedtobelieveit.Iwentthroughthecardsinapanic,sofastthatIwaschokingonmywords.Iwantedtoteartheinkblotsaparttomakethemrevealthemselves.Somewhereinthoseinkblotstherewerean­swersIhadknownjustalittlewhileago.Notreallyintheinkblots,butinthepartofmymindthatwouldgiveformandmeaningtothemandprojectmyimprintonthem.

           AndIcouldn’tdoit.Icouldn’trememberwhatIhadtosay.Allmissing.

           "That’sawoman..."Isaid,"...onherkneeswashingthefloors.Imean—no—it’samanholdingaknife."