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PROGRESS REPORT 14
"Comeinthekitchen.I’llmakesomecoffee."Whathaveyoubeendoing?"
"Days—I’vebeenthinking,reading,andwriting;andnights—wanderinginsearchofmyself.AndI’vediscoveredthatCharlieiswatchingme."
"Don’ttalklikethat,"sheshuddered."Thisbusinessaboutbeingwatchedisn’treal.You’vebuiltitupinyourmind."
"Ican’thelpfeelingthatI’mnotme.I’veusurpedhisplaceandlockedhimoutthewaytheylockedmeoutofthebakery.WhatImeantosayisthatCharlieGordonexistsinthepast,andthepastisreal.Youcan’tputupanewbuildingonasiteuntilyoudestroytheoldone,andtheoldCharliecan’tbedestroyed.Heexists.AtfirstIwassearchingforhim:Iwenttoseehis—my—father.AllIwantedtodowasprovethatCharlieexistedasapersoninthepast,sothatIcouldjustifymyownexistence.IwasinsultedwhenNemursaidhecreatedme.ButI’vediscoveredthatnotonlydidCharlieexistinthepast,heexistsnow.Inmeandaroundme.He’sbeencomingbetweenusallalong.Ithoughtmyintelligencecreatedthebarrier—mypompous,foolishpride,thefeelingwehadnothingincommonbecauseIhadgonebeyondyou.Youputthatideaintomyhead.Butthat’snotit.It’sCharlie,thelittleboywho’safraidofwomenbecauseofthingshismotherdidtohim.Don’tyousee?AllthesemonthswhileI’vebeengrowingupintellectually,I’vestillhadtheemotionalwiringofthechildlikeCharlie.
