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           Turndowntheheatunderthepan. 

           Istirtheboilingwater. 

           Moreandmoretallowwillriseuntilthewaterisskinnedoverwitharainbowmother-of-pearllayer. Useabigspoontoskimthelayeroff,andsetthislayeraside. 

           So,Isay,howisMarla? 

           Tylersays, "AtleastMarla’stryingtohitbottom." 

           Istirtheboilingwater. 

           Keepskimminguntilnomoretallowrises. Thisistallowwe’reskimmingoffthewater. Goodcleantallow. 

           TylersaysI’mnowherenearhittingthebottom,yet. AndifIdon’tfallalltheway,Ican’tbesaved. Jesusdiditwithhiscrucifixionthing. Ishouldn’tjustabandonmoneyandpropertyandknowledge. Thisisn’tjustaweekendretreat. Ishouldrunfromself-improvement,andIshouldberunningtowarddisaster. Ican’tjustplayitsafeanymore. 

           Thisisn’taseminar. 

           "Ifyouloseyournervebeforeyouhitthebottom,"Tylersays,"you’llneverreallysucceed." 

           Onlyafterdisastercanweberesurrected. 

           "It’sonlyafteryou’velosteverything,"Tylersays,"thatyou’refreetodoanything." 

           WhatI’mfeelingisprematureenlightenment."