Пробный камень
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Povertyandmisfortunehadoverhungherchildhoodandshehadnoneoftheprettydelusionsaboutlifethataresupposedtobethecrowninggraceofgirlhood.Thisverycompetence,whichgaveheratouchingreasonableness,madeGlennard’ssituationmoredifficultthanifhehadaspiredtoaprincessbredinthepurple.Betweenthemtheyaskedsolittle—theyknewsowellhowtomakethatlittledo—buttheyunderstoodalso,andsheespeciallydidnotforamomentlethimforget,thatwithoutthatlittlethefuturetheydreamedofwasimpossible.
ThesightofherphotographquickenedGlennard’sexasperation.Hewassickandashamedoftheparthewasplaying.Hehadlovedhernowfortwoyears,withthetranquiltendernessthatgathersdepthandvolumeasitnearsfulfilment;heknewthatshewouldwaitforhim—butthecertitudewasanaddedpang.Therearetimeswhentheconstancyofthewomanonecannotmarryisalmostastryingasthatofthewomanonedoesnotwantto.
Glennardturneduphisreading-lampandstirredthefire.Hehadalongeveningbeforehimandhewantedtocrowdoutthoughtwithaction.Hehadbroughtsomepapersfromhisofficeandhespreadthemoutonhistableandsquaredhimselftothetask....
Itmusthavebeenanhourlaterthathefoundhimselfautomaticallyfittingakeyintoalockeddrawer.Hehadnomorenotionthanasomnambulistofthementalprocessthathadleduptothisaction.