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Thegreatrenewalstakeeffectasimperceptiblyasthefirstworkingsofspring.Glennard,thoughhefelthimselfbroughtnearertohiswife,wasstill,asitwere,hardlywithinspeakingdistance.Hewasbutlaboriouslyacquiringtherudimentsoftheirnewmediumofcommunication;andhehadtogropeforherthroughthedensefogofhishumiliation,thedistortingvaporagainstwhichhispersonalityloomedgrotesqueandmean.
Onlythefactthatweareunawarehowwellournearestknowusenablesustolivewiththem.Loveisthemostimpregnablerefugeofself-esteem,andwehatetheeyethatreachestoournakedness.IfGlennarddidnothatehiswifeitwasslowly,sufferingly,thattherewasborninhimthatprofounderpassionwhichmadehisearlierfeelingseemamerecommotionoftheblood.Hewaslikeachildcomingbacktothesenseofanenvelopingpresence:hernearnesswasabreastonwhichheleaned.
Theydidnot,atfirst,talkmuchtogether,andeachbeatadevioustrackabouttheoutskirtsofthesubjectthatlaybetweenthemlikeahauntedwood.Buteveryword,everyaction,seemedtoglanceatit,todrawtowardit,asthoughafountofhealingspranginitspoisonedshade.Ifonlytheymightcutawaythroughthethickettothatrestoringspring!
Glennard,watchinghiswifewiththeintentnessofawanderertowhomnonaturalsignisnegligible,sawthatshehadtakentemporaryrefugeinthepurposeofrenouncingthemoney.Ifboth,theoretically,ownedtheinefficacyofsuchamends,thewoman’sinstinctivesubjectivenessmadeherfindreliefinthiscrudeformofpenance.