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Reardenpressedhisforeheadtothemirrorandtriednottothink.
Thatwastheonlywayhecouldgothroughwithit,hetoldhimself.Heconcentratedonthereliefofthemirror’scoolingtouch,wonderinghowonewentaboutforcingone’smindintoblankness,particularlyafteralifetimelivedontheaxiomthattheconstant,clearest,mostruthlessfunctionofhisrationalfacultywashisforemostduty.Hewonderedwhynoefforthadeverseemedbeyondhiscapacity,yetnowhecouldnotscrapeupthestrengthtostickafewblackpearlstudsintohisstarchedwhiteshirtfront.
Thiswashisweddinganniversaryandhehadknownforthreemonthsthatthepartywouldtakeplacetonight,asLillianwished.Hehadpromisedittoher,safeintheknowledgethatthepartywasalongwayoffandthathewouldattendtoit,whenthetimecame,asheattendedtoeverydutyonhisoverloadedschedule.Then,duringthreemonthsofeighteen-hourworkdays,hehadforgottenithappily—untilhalfanhourago,when,longpastdinnertime,hissecretaryhadenteredhisofficeandsaidfirmly,"Yourparty,Mr.Rearden."Hehadcried,"GoodGod!"leapingtohisfeet;hehadhurriedhome,rushedupthestairs,startedtearinghisclothesoffandgonethroughtheroutineofdressing,consciousonlyoftheneedtohurry,notofthepurpose.Whenthefullrealizationofthepurposestruckhimlikeasuddenblow,hestopped.
"Youdon’tcareforanythingbutbusiness."Hehadhearditallhislife,pronouncedasaverdictofdamnation.