Коллекционер

           Areallybadbronchialcold.Shivering.

           Ihaven’tsleptproperly.Horriddreams.Weird,veryvividdreams.G.P.wasinone.Itmademecry.Ifeelsofrightened.

           Ican’teat.There’sapaininmylungwhenIbreathe,andIkeeponthinkingofpneumonia.Butitcan’tbe.

           Iwon’tdie.Iwon’tdie.NotforCaliban.

           Dream.Extraordinary.

           WalkingintheAshGroveatL.Ilookupthroughthetrees.Iseeanaeroplaneinthebluesky.Iknowitwillcrash.LaterIseewhereithascrashed.Iamfrightenedtogoon.Agirlwalkstowardsme.Minny?Ican’tsee.SheisinpeculiarGreekclothes—drapery.White.Insunshinethroughthestilltrees.SeemstoknowmebutIdonotknowher(notMinny).Neverclose.Iwanttobeclose.Withher.Iwakeup.

           IfIdie,noonewilleverknow.

           Itputsmeinafever.Ican’twrite.

           (Night.)Nopity.NoGod.

           Ishoutedathimandhewentmad.Iwastooweaktostophim.Boundandgaggedmeandtookhisbeastlyphotographs.

           Idon’tmindthepain.Thehumiliation.

           Ididwhathewanted.Togetitover.

           Idon’tmindformyselfanymore.

           ButohGodthebeastlinessofitall.

           I’mcryingI’mcryingIcan’twrite.

           Iwillnotgivein.

           Iwillnotgivein.

           Ican’tsleep.I’mgoingmad.Havetohavethelighton.Wilddreams.Ithinkpeoplearehere.D.Minny.

           It’spneumonia.

           Hemustgetadoctor.

           Itismurder.

           Ican’twriteitdown.Wordsareuseless.

           (He’scome.)Hewon’tlisten.I’vebeggedhim.I’vesaidit’smurder.Soweak.Temperature102