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           She’sthelastpersonthatshouldbeanexceptiontothegeneralrule.

           MinnyandIhavesooftendespisedDforputtingupwithher.Weoughttogodownonourkneestohim.

           TheotherthingIthinkaboutisG.P.

           WhenIfirstmethimItoldeveryonehowmarvelloushewas.Thenareactionsetin,IthoughtIwasgettingasillyschoolgirlhero-pashonhim,andtheotherthingbegantohappen.Itwasalltooemotional.

           Becausehe’schangedmemorethananythingoranybody.MorethanLondon,morethantheSlade.

           It’snotjustthathe’sseensomuchmorelife.Hadsomuchmoreartisticexperience.Andisknown.Buthesaysexactlywhathethinks,andhealwaysmakesmethink.That’sthebigthing.Hemakesmequestionmyself.HowmanytimeshaveIdisagreedwithhim?AndthenaweeklaterwithsomeoneelseIfindI’marguingashewouldargue.Judgingpeoplebyhisstandards.

           He’schippedoffall(well,someof,anyway)mysilliness,mystupidfussyfrillyideasaboutlifeandart,andmodernart.Myfeyness.I’veneverbeenthesamesincehetoldmehowhehatedfeywomen.Ievenlearntthewordfromhim.

           Listofthewaysinwhichhehasalteredme.Eitherdirectly.Orconfirmedalterationsinprogress.

           1.Ifyouarearealartist,yougiveyourwholebeingtoyourart.Anythingshortofthat,thenyouarenotanartist.NotwhatG.P.callsa"maker."

           2.Youdon’tgush.Youdon’thavelittleset-piecesorset-ideasyougushouttoimpresspeoplewith.

           3.