Chapter 13

           Emmacontinuedtoentertainnodoubtofherbeinginlove.Herideasonlyvariedastothehowmuch.Atfirst,shethoughtitwasagooddeal;andafterwards,butlittle.ShehadgreatpleasureinhearingFrankChurchilltalkedof;and,forhissake,greaterpleasurethaneverinseeingMr.andMrs.Weston;shewasveryoftenthinkingofhim,andquiteimpatientforaletter,thatshemightknowhowhewas,howwerehisspirits,howwashisaunt,andwhatwasthechanceofhiscomingtoRandallsagainthisspring.But,ontheotherhand,shecouldnotadmitherselftobeunhappy,nor,afterthefirstmorning,tobelessdisposedforemploymentthanusual;shewasstillbusyandcheerful;and,pleasingashewas,shecouldyetimaginehimtohavefaults;andfarther,thoughthinkingofhimsomuch,and,asshesatdrawingorworking,formingathousandamusingschemesfortheprogressandcloseoftheirattachment,fancyinginterestingdialogues,andinventingelegantletters;theconclusionofeveryimaginarydeclarationonhissidewasthatsherefusedhim.Theiraffectionwasalwaystosubsideintofriendship.Everythingtenderandcharmingwastomarktheirparting;butstilltheyweretopart.Whenshebecamesensibleofthis,itstruckherthatshecouldnotbeverymuchinlove;forinspiteofherpreviousandfixeddeterminationnevertoquitherfather,nevertomarry,astrongattachmentcertainlymustproducemoreofastrugglethanshecouldforeseeinherownfeelings.