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           Theyalwayswantyoutoshutupwhentheyshutup,andgobacktoyourroomwhentheygobacktotheirroom.WhenIwasatWhootonoldLuceusedtohateit—youreallycouldtellhedid—whenafterhewasfinishedgivinghissextalktoabunchofusinhisroomwestuckaroundandchewedthefatbyourselvesforawhile.Imeantheotherguysandmyself.Insomebodyelse’sroom.OldLucehatedthat.Healwayswantedeverybodytogobacktotheirownroomandshutupwhenhewasfinishedbeingthebigshot.Thethinghewasafraidof,hewasafraidsomebody’dsaysomethingsmarterthanhehad.Hereallyamusedme.

           "MaybeI’llgotoChina.Mysexlifeislousy,"Isaid.

           "Naturally.Yourmindisimmature."

           "Itis.Itreallyis.Iknowit,"Isaid."Youknowwhatthetroublewithmeis?Icannevergetreallysexy—Imeanreallysexy—withagirlIdon’tlikealot.ImeanIhavetolikeheralot.IfIdon’t,Isortoflosemygoddamdesireforherandall.Boy,itreallyscrewsupmysexlifesomethingawful.Mysexlifestinks."

           "Naturallyitdoes,forGod’ssake.ItoldyouthelasttimeIsawyouwhatyouneed."

           "Youmeantogotoapsychoanalystandall?"Isaid.That’swhathe’dtoldmeIoughttodo.Hisfatherwasapsychoanalystandall.

           "It’suptoyou,forGod’ssake.It’snoneofmygoddambusinesswhatyoudowithyourlife."

           Ididn’tsayanythingforawhile.Iwasthinking.