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Chapter 3
Heunlockedthefettersfrommyankles,openedtheshuttersofthelittlewindow,anddeparted,leavingmeagainalone.
BythistimeIhadbecomestiffandsore;mybodywascoveredwithblisters,anditwaswithgreatpainanddifficultythatIcouldmove. FromthewindowIcouldobservenothingbuttheroofrestingontheadjacentwall. AtnightIlaiddownuponthedamp,hardfloor,withoutanypilloworcoveringwhatever. Punctually,twiceaday,Radburncamein,withhispork,andbread,andwater. Ihadbutlittleappetite,thoughIwastormentedwithcontinualthirst. Mywoundswouldnotpermitmetoremainbutafewminutesinanyoneposition;so,sitting,orstanding,ormovingslowlyround,Ipassedthedaysandnights. Iwasheartsickanddiscouraged. Thoughtsofmyfamily,ofmywifeandchildren,continuallyoccupiedmymind. WhensleepoverpoweredmeIdreamedofthem—dreamedIwasagaininSaratoga—thatIcouldseetheirfaces,andheartheirvoicescallingme. Awakeningfromthepleasantphantasmsofsleeptothebitterrealitiesaroundme,Icouldbutgroanandweep. Stillmyspiritwasnotbroken. Iindulgedtheanticipationofescape,andthatspeedily. Itwasimpossible,Ireasoned,thatmencouldbesounjustastodetainmeasaslave,whenthetruthofmycasewasknown. Burch,ascertainingIwasnorunawayfromGeorgia,wouldcertainlyletmego. ThoughsuspicionsofBrownandHamiltonwerenotunfrequent,Icouldnotreconcilemyselftotheideathattheywereinstrumentaltomyimprisonment. Surelytheywouldseekmeout—theywoulddelivermefromthraldom. Alas! Ihadnotthenlearnedthemeasureof"man’sinhumanitytoman,"nortowhatlimitlessextentofwickednesshewillgofortheloveofgain.
Inthecourseofseveraldaystheouterdoorwasthrownopen,allowingmethelibertyoftheyard. ThereIfoundthreeslaves—oneofthemaladoftenyears,theothersyoungmenofabouttwentyandtwenty-five. Iwasnotlonginforminganacquaintance,andlearningtheirnamesandtheparticularsoftheirhistory.