Двенадцать лет рабства
Chapter 18
Shefellintoamournfulanddespondingmood,andoftentimeswouldstartupinhersleep,andwithraisedhands,pleadformercy. Shebecamemoresilentthanshewas,toilingalldayinourmidst,notutteringaword. Acare-worn,pitifulexpressionsettledonherface,anditwasherhumornowtoweep,ratherthanrejoice. Ifevertherewasabrokenheart—onecrushedandblightedbytherudegraspofsufferingandmisfortune—itwasPatsey’s.
Shehadbeenrearednobetterthanhermaster’sbeast—lookeduponmerelyasavaluableandhandsomeanimal—andconsequentlypossessedbutalimitedamountofknowledge. Andyetafaintlightcastitsraysoverherintellect,sothatitwasnotwhollydark. ShehadadimperceptionofGodandofeternity,andastillmoredimperceptionofaSaviourwhohaddiedevenforsuchasher. Sheentertainedbutconfusednotionsofafuturelife—notcomprehendingthedistinctionbetweenthecorporealandspiritualexistence. Happiness,inhermind,wasexemptionfromstripes—fromlabor—fromthecrueltyofmastersandoverseers. Herideaofthejoyofheavenwassimplyrest,andisfullyexpressedintheselinesofamelancholybard:
"Iasknoparadiseonhigh,
Withcaresonearthoppressed,
TheonlyheavenforwhichIsigh,
Isrest,eternalrest."
Itisamistakenopinionthatprevailsinsomequarters,thattheslavedoesnotunderstandtheterm—doesnotcomprehendtheideaoffreedom.