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Chapter 2
Itwasalmostasnarrowasacorridor,withasmallsquareaperture,barredbyaheavygrating,atthedistantend.CaptainMitchellstaggeredforafewsteps,thensatdownontheearthenfloorwithhisbacktothewall.Nothing,notevenagleamoflightfromanywhere,interferedwithCaptainMitchell’smeditation.Hedidsomehardbutnotveryextensivethinking.Itwasnotofagloomycast.Theoldsailor,withallhissmallweaknessesandabsurdities,wasconstitutionallyincapableofentertainingforanylengthoftimeafearofhispersonalsafety.Itwasnotsomuchfirmnessofsoulasthelackofacertainkindofimagination—thekindwhoseunduedevelopmentcausedintensesufferingtoSenorHirsch;thatsortofimaginationwhichaddstheblindterrorofbodilysufferingandofdeath,envisagedasanaccidenttothebodyalone,strictly—toalltheotherapprehensionsonwhichthesenseofone’sexistenceisbased.Unfortunately,CaptainMitchellhadnotmuchpenetrationofanykind;characteristic,illuminatingtriflesofexpression,action,ormovement,escapedhimcompletely.Hewastoopompouslyandinnocentlyawareofhisownexistencetoobservethatofothers.Forinstance,hecouldnotbelievethatSotillohadbeenreallyafraidofhim,andthissimplybecauseitwouldneverhaveenteredintohisheadtoshootanyoneexceptinthemostpressingcaseofself-defence.Anybodycouldseehewasnotamurderingkindofman,hereflectedquitegravely.Thenwhythispreposterousandinsultingcharge?heaskedhimself.