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Chapter 5
HisdisdaingrewlikeareactionofhisscepticismagainsttheactionintowhichhewasforcedbyhisinfatuationforAntonia.Hesoothedhimselfbysayinghewasnotapatriot,butalover.
Theladiescameinbareheaded,andMrs.Gouldsanklowbeforethelittletea-table.Antoniatookupherusualplaceatthereceptionhour—thecornerofaleatherncouch,witharigidgraceinherposeandafaninherhand.Decoud,swervingfromthestraightlineofhismarch,cametoleanoverthehighbackofherseat.
Foralongtimehetalkedintoherearfrombehind,softly,withahalfsmileandanairofapologeticfamiliarity.Herfanlayhalfgraspedonherknees.Sheneverlookedathim.Hisrapidutterancegrewmoreandmoreinsistentandcaressing.Atlastheventuredaslightlaugh.
“No,really.Youmustforgiveme.Onemustbeserioussometimes.”Hepaused.Sheturnedherheadalittle;herblueeyesglidedslowlytowardshim,slightlyupwards,mollifiedandquestioning.
“Youcan’tthinkIamseriouswhenIcallMonteroagran’bestiaeveryseconddayinthePorvenir?Thatisnotaseriousoccupation.Nooccupationisserious,notevenwhenabulletthroughtheheartisthepenaltyoffailure!”
Herhandclosedfirmlyonherfan.
“Somereason,youunderstand,Imeansomesense,maycreepintothinking;someglimpseoftruth.Imeansomeeffectivetruth,forwhichthereisnoroominpoliticsorjournalism.