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Anti-Life
"Thenyoumusthavefaithinme.Loveisfaith,youknow.Don’tyouseethatIneedit?Idon’ttrustanyonearoundme,Ihavenothingbutenemies,Iamverylonely.Don’tyouknowthatIneedyou?"
Thethingthatmadeherpaceherroom—hourslater,intorturedrestlessness—wasthatshewisheddesperatelytobelievehimanddidnotbelieveawordofit,yetknewthatitwastrue.
Itwastrue,butnotinthemannerheimplied,notinanymannerormeaningshecouldeverhopetograsp.Itwastruethatheneededher,butthenatureofhisneedkeptslippingpasthereveryefforttodefineit.Shedidnotknowwhathewantedofher.Itwasnotflatterythathewanted,shehadseenhimlisteningtotheobsequiouscomplimentsofliars,listeningwithalookofresentfulinertness—almostthelookofadrugaddictatadoseinadequatetorousehim.Butshehadseenhimlookatherasifhewerewaitingforsomerevivingshotand,attimes,asifhewerebegging.Shehadseenaflickeroflifeinhiseyeswhenevershegrantedhimsomesignofadmiration—yetaburstofangerwashisanswer,whenevershenamedareasonforadmiringhim.
Heseemedtowanthertoconsiderhimgreat,butneverdareascribeanyspecificcontenttohisgreatness.
Shedidnotunderstandthenight,inmid-April,whenhereturnedfromatriptoWashington."Hi,kid!"hesaidloudly,droppingasheafoflilacintoherarms."Happydaysarehereagain!Justsawthoseflowersandthoughtofyou.