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           Youcanhaveyourownbedroomandlockiteverynight,Isaid.

           "Butthat’shorrible.It’sinhuman!We’llneverunderstandeachother.Wedon’thavethesamesortofheart."

           I’vegotaheart,forallthat,Isaid.

           "Ijustthinkofthingsasbeautifulornot.Can’tyouunderstand?Idon’tthinkofgoodorbad.Justofbeautifulorugly.Ithinkalotofnicethingsareuglyandalotofnastythingsarebeautiful."

           You’replayingwithwords,Isaid.Allshedidwasstareatme,thenshesmiledandgotupandstoodbythefire,reallybeautiful.Butallwithdrawn.Superior.

           Isupposeyou’reinlovewiththatPiersBroughton,Isaid.Iwantedtogiveherajolt.Shewasreallysurprised,too.

           "Howdoyouknowabouthim?"

           Itoldheritwasinthepapers.Itsaidyouandhimwereunofficiallyengaged,Isaid.

           Isawrightofftheyweren’t.Shejustlaughed."He’sthelastpersonI’dmarry.I’drathermarryyou."

           Thenwhycan’titbeme?

           "BecauseIcan’tmarryamantowhomIdon’tfeelIbelonginallways.Mymindmustbehis,myheartmustbehis,mybodymustbehis.JustasImustfeelhebelongstome."

           Ibelongtoyou.

           "Butyoudon’t!Belonging’stwothings.Onewhogivesandonewhoacceptswhat’sgiven.Youdon’tbelongtomebecauseIcan’tacceptyou.Ican’tgiveyouanythingback."

           Idon’twantmuch.

           "Iknowyoudon’t.OnlythethingsthatIhavetogiveanyway.ThewayIlookandspeakandmove.ButI’motherthings.