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           —Youpaintwithyourwholebeing.Firstyouleamthat.Therestisluck.

           Goodsolution:Imustnotbefey.

           ThismorningIdrewawholeseriesofquicksketchesofbowlsoffruit.SinceCalibanwantstogive,Idon’tcarehowmuchpaperIwaste.I"hung"themandaskedhimtochoosewhichonewasbest.Ofcoursehepickedallthosethatlookedmostlikethewretchedbowloffruit.Istartedtotrytoexplaintohim.Iwasboastingaboutoneofthesketches(theoneIlikedbest).Heannoyedme,itdidn’tmeananythingtohim,andhemadeitclearinhismiserableI’ll-take-your-word-for-itwaythathedidn’treallycare.TohimIwasjustachildamusingherself.

           Blind,blind,otherworld.

           Myfault.Iwasshowingoff.Howcouldheseethemagicandimportanceofart(notmyart,ofart)whenIwassovain?

           Wehadanargumentafterlunch.Healwaysasksmeifhemaystay.SometimesIfeelsolonely,sosickofmyownthoughts,thatIlethim.Iwanthimtostay.That’swhatprisondoes.Andthere’sescape,escape,escape.

           Theargumentwasaboutnucleardisarmament.Ihaddoubts,theotherday.Butnotnow.

           DIALOGUEBETWEENMIRANDAANDCALIBAN.

           M.(Iwassittingonmybed,smoking.Calibanonhisusualchairbytheirondoor,thefanwasgoingoutside)WhatdoyouthinkabouttheH-bomb?

           C.Nothingmuch.

           M.Youmustthinksomething.

           C.Hopeitdoesn’tdroponyou.Oronme.

           M.Irealizeyou’veneverlivedwithpeoplewhotakethingsseriously,anddiscussseriously.(Heputonhishurtface.)