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           IknowIwasn’tnormalthen,notdoingtheexpected,shedidsomethingswhichIwon’tsayexceptthatIwouldneverhavethoughtitofher.Shelaybesidemeonthesofaandeverything,butIwasalltwistedinside.

           Shemademelookaproperfool.Iknewwhatshewasthinking,shewasthinkingthiswaswhyIwasalwayssore-spectful.Iwantedtodoit,IwantedtoshowherIcoulddoitsoIcouldproveIwasreallyrespectful.IwantedhertoseeIcoulddoit,thenIwouldtellherIwasn’tgoingto,itwasbelowme,andbelowher,itwasdisgusting.

           Well,welayforsometimestillandIfeltshewasdespisingme,Iwasafreak.

           Intheendshegotupoffthesofaandkneeledbesidemeandstrokedmyhead.

           "Ithappenstolotsofmen,itdoesn’tmatter."You’dthinkshehadalltheexperienceintheworldtohaveheardher.

           Shewentbackbythefireandputherhousecoatonandsattherewatchingme.Igotmyclotheson.ItoldherIknewIcouldneverdoit.Imadeupalongstorysothatshewouldpityme,itwasalllies,Idon’tknowifshebelievedit;abouthowIcouldfeellovebutcouldneverdoit.HowthatwaswhyIhadtokeepher.

           "Butdoesn’titpleaseyouatalltotouchme?Youseemedtolikekissingme."

           Isaid,itwaswhenitgotpastthekissing.

           "Ishouldn’thavegivenyousuchashock."

           It’snotyourfault,Isaid.I’mnotlikeotherpeople.Nobodyunderstands.

           "Iunderstand."

           Idreamaboutit,Isaid.Itcan’teverbereal.

           "LikeTantalus."