О дивный новый мир
Chapter 12
Butinspiteofthisknowledgeandtheseadmissions,inspiteofthefactthathisfriend’ssupportandsympathywerenowhisonlycomfort,Bernardcontinuedperverselytonourish,alongwithhisquitegenuineaffection,asecretgrievanceagainsttheSavage,tomediateacampaignofsmallrevengestobewreakeduponhim.NourishingagrievanceagainsttheArch-Community-Songsterwasuseless;therewasnopossibilityofbeingrevengedontheChiefBottlerortheAssistantPredestinator.Asavictim,theSavagepossessed,forBernard,thisenormoussuperiorityovertheothers:thathewasaccessible.Oneoftheprincipalfunctionsofafriendistosuffer(inamilderandsymbolicform)thepunishmentsthatweshouldlike,butareunable,toinflictuponourenemies.
Bernard’sothervictim-friendwasHelmholtz.When,discomfited,hecameandaskedoncemoreforthefriendshipwhich,inhisprosperity,hehadnotthoughtitworthhiswhiletopreserve.Helmholtzgaveit;andgaveitwithoutareproach,withoutacomment,asthoughhehadforgottenthattherehadeverbeenaquarrel.Touched,Bernardfelthimselfatthesametimehumiliatedbythismagnanimity–amagnanimitythemoreextraordinaryandthereforethemorehumiliatinginthatitowednothingtosomaandeverythingtoHelmholtz’scharacter.ItwastheHelmholtzofdailylifewhoforgotandforgave,nottheHelmholtzofahalf-grammeholiday.