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           Andthere’sabsolutelynothingyoucandoaboutit,don’tyouunderstand?I’mnotinsultingyoubytryingtopretendI’mperfectlyhappy.Suchisn’tthehumancondition.ButifyouthinkwehereonDroghedaspendourdaysweepingandwailing,you’requitewrong.Weenjoyourdays,andoneofthemainreasonswhyisthatourlightsforyoustillburn.Dane’slightisgoneforever.Please,dearJustine,trytoacceptthat.

           ComehometoDroghedabyallmeans,we’dlovetoseeyou.Butnotforgood.You’dneverbehappysettledherepermanently.Itisnotonlyaneedlesssacrificeforyoutomake,butauselessone.Inyoursortofcareer,evenayearspentawayfromitwouldcostyoudearly.Sostaywhereyoubelong,beagoodcitizenofyourworld.

           Thepain.ItwaslikethosefirstfewdaysafterDanedied.Thesamesortoffutile,wasted,unavoidablepain.Thesameanguishedimpotence.No,ofcoursetherewasnothingshecoulddo.Nowayofmakingup,noway.

           Scream!Thekettlewaswhistlingalready.Hush,kettle,hush!HushforMummy!HowdoesitfeeltobeMummy’sonlychild,kettle?AskJustine,sheknows.Yes,Justineknowsallaboutbeingtheonlychild.ButI’mnotthechildshewants,thatpoorfadingoldwomanbackontheranch.Oh,Mum!Oh,Mum…DoyouthinkifIhumanlycould,Iwouldn’t?Newlampsforold,mylifeforhis!Itisn’tfair,thatDanewastheonetodie…She’sright.MygoingbacktoDroghedacan’talterthefactthathenevercan.Thoughheliesthereforever,henevercan