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Chapter 14
EventheHolyFather,whoisthemosthumbleandhumanofusall."
"Ibrokemyvows,YourEminence.Thatisn’teasilyforgiven.It’ssacrilege."
"Povertyyoubrokeyearsago,whenyouacceptedthebequestofMrs.MaryCarson.Whichleaveschastityandobedience,doesitnot?"
"Thenallthreewerebroken,YourEminence."
"IwishyouwouldcallmeVittorio,asyouusedto!Iamnotshocked,Ralph,nordisappointed.ItisasOurLordJesusChristwills,andIthinkperhapsyouhadagreatlessontolearnwhichcouldnotbelearnedinanywaylessdestructive.Godismysterious,Hisreasonsbeyondourpoorcomprehension.ButIthinkwhatyoudidwasnotdonelightly,yourvowsthrownawayashavingnovalue.Iknowyouverywell.Iknowyoutobeproud,verymuchinlovewiththeideaofbeingapriest,veryconsciousofyourexclusiveness.Itispossiblethatyouneededthisparticularlessontoreducethatpride,makeyouunderstandthatyouarefirstaman,andthereforenotasexclusiveasyouthink.Isitnotso?"
"Yes.Ilackedhumility,andIbelieveinawayIaspiredtobeGodHimself.I’vesinnedmostgrievouslyandinexcusably.Ican’tforgivemyself,sohowcanIhopefordivineforgiveness?"
"Thepride,Ralph,thepride!Itisnotyourplacetoforgive,doyounotunderstandthatyet?OnlyGodcanforgive.OnlyGod!AndHewillforgiveifthesincererepentanceisthere.Hehasforgivengreatersinsfromfargreatersaints,youknow,aswellasfromfargreatervillains.
