Chapter 17
Welearnofgreatthingsbylittleexperiences.Thehistoryofagesisbutanindefiniterepetitionofthehistoryofhours.Therecordofasoulisbutamultipleofthestoryofamoment.TheRecordingAngelwritesintheGreatBookinnorainbowtints;hispenisdippedinnocoloursbutlightanddarkness.Fortheeyeofinfinitewisdomthereisnoneedofshading.Allthings,allthoughts,allemotions,allexperiences,alldoubtsandhopesandfears,allintentions,allwishesseendowntothelowerstrataoftheirconcreteandmultitudinouselements,arefinallyresolvedintodirectopposites.
DidanyhumanbeingwishfortheepitomeofalifewhereinweregatheredandgroupedalltheexperiencesthatachildofAdamcouldhave,thehistory,fullyandfranklywritten,ofmyownmindduringthenextforty-eighthourswouldaffordhimallthatcouldbewanted.AndtheRecordercouldhavewroughtasusualinsunlightandshadow,whichmaybetakentorepresentthefinalexpressionsofHeavenandHell.ForinthehighestHeavenisFaith;andDoubthangsovertheyawningblacknessofHell.
Therewereofcoursetimesofsunshineinthosetwodays;momentswhen,intherealisationofMargaret’ssweetnessandherloveforme,alldoubtsweredissipatedlikemorningmistbeforethesun.Butthebalanceofthetime—andanoverwhelmingbalanceitwas—gloomhungovermelikeapall.