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           Now,indiggingoutherownandlookingatit,shedecidedthateitherthisformofnarcissismwasnormal,orshewasabnormalandhadnotknownit.Butshedidn’tfeelabnormal;shefelthealthyandhappy–healthierthanshehadeverbeen.Shehadbeenalwaysofbetterthanaveragehealth-nursesneedtobe–butshehadn’thadasnifflenorevenanupsetstomachinshecouldn’trememberwhen?why,shethoughtwonderingly,notevencramps.

           Okay,shewashealthy–andifahealthywomanlikedtobelookedat–andnotasasideofbeef!–thenitfollowsasthenightfromdaythathealthymenshouldliketolookatthem,elsetherewasjustnodarnsensetoit!Atwhichpointshefinallyunderstood,intellectually,Dukeandhispictures?andbeggedhispardoninhermind.

           ShediscusseditwithMike,triedtoexplainherchangedviewpoint–noteasy,sinceMikecouldnotunderstandwhyJillhadevermindedbeinglookedat,atanytime,byanyone.Notwishingtobetouchedheunderstood;Mikeavoidedshakinghandsifhecoulddosowithoutoffense,hewantedtotouchandbetouchedonlybywaterbrothers(Jillwasn’tsurejusthowfarthisincludedmalewaterbrothersinMike’smind;shehadexplainedhomosexualitytohim,afterhehadreadaboutitandfailedtogrokit–andhadgivenhimpracticalrulesforavoidingeventheappearancethereofandhowtokeepsuchpassesfrombeingmadeathim,sincesheassumedcorrectlythatMike,prettyashewas,wouldattractsuchpasses.