Если я останусь
5:42 A.M.
Butintermsofheartbreak,I’vebeenspared.I’venevertoughenedupenoughtohandlewhatI’dhavetohandleifIweretostay.
KimisnowtellingmeaboutbeingrescuedfromcertainincarcerationbyWillow.AsshedescribeshowWillowtookchargeofthewholehospital,thereissuchadmirationinhervoice.IpictureKimandWillowbecomingfriends,eventhoughtherearetwentyyearsbetweenthem.Itmakesmehappytoimaginethemdrinkingteaorgoingtothemoviestogether,stillconnectedtoeachotherbytheinvisiblechainofafamilythatnolongerexists.
NowKimislistingallthepeoplewhoareatthehospitalorwhohavebeen,duringthecourseoftheday,tickingthemoffwithherfingers:"Yourgrandparentsandaunts,uncles,andcousins.AdamandBrookeVegaandthevariousrabble-rouserswhocamewithher.Adam’sbandmatesMikeandFitzyandLizandhergirlfriend,Sarah,allofwhomhavebeendownstairsinthewaitingroomsincetheygotheavedoutoftheICU.ProfessorChristie,whodrovedownandstayedhalfthenightbeforedrivingbacksoshecouldsleepafewhoursandshowerandmakesomemorningappointmentshehad.Henryandthebaby,whoareontheirwayoverrightnowbecausethebabywokeupatfiveinthemorningandHenrycalledusandsaidthathecouldnotstayathomeanylonger.AndmeandMom,"Kimconcludes."Shoot.Ilostcountofhowmanypeoplethatwas.Butitwasalot.Andmorehavecalledandaskedtocome,butyourauntDianetoldthemtowait.Shesaysthatwe’remakingenoughnuisanceofourselves.
