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Experiments in Convalescence
Onenightwhiletheheat,overpoweringandenervating,pouredintothewindowsofhisroomhestruggledforseveralhoursinavagueefforttoimmortalizethepoignancyofthattime.
TheFebruarystreets,wind-washedbynight,blowfullofstrange
half-intermittentdamps,bearingonwastedwalksinshiningsight
wetsnowplashedintogleamsunderthelamps,likegoldenoil
fromsomedivinemachine,inanhourofthawandstars.
Strangedamps—fulloftheeyesofmanymen,crowdedwithlife
borneinuponalull....Oh,Iwasyoung,forIcouldturn
againtoyou,mostfiniteandmostbeautiful,andtastethestuff
ofhalf-remembereddreams,sweetandnewonyourmouth.
...Therewasatanginginthemidnightair—silencewasdeadand
soundnotyetawoken—Lifecrackedlikeice!—onebrilliantnote
andthere,radiantandpale,youstood...andspringhadbroken.
(Theicicleswereshortupontheroofsandthechangelingcity
swooned.)
Ourthoughtswerefrostymistalongtheeaves;ourtwoghosts
kissed,highonthelong,mazedwires—eeriehalf-laughterechoes
hereandleavesonlyafatuoussighforyoungdesires;regrethas
followedafterthingssheloved,leavingthegreathusk.
ANOTHERENDING
Inmid-AugustcamealetterfromMonsignorDarcy,whohadevidentlyjuststumbledonhisaddress:
MYDEARBOY:—
Yourlastletterwasquiteenoughtomakemeworryaboutyou.Itwasnotabitlikeyourself.