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The Egotist Considers
Hewalkedintotheroomandstraightovertothetable,andthensuddenlynoticedthattherewereotherpeopleintheroom.
"’Lo,Kerry."Hewasmostpolite."Ah,menofPrinceton."Theyseemedtobemostlyfriends,sohepickeduptheenvelopemarked"Registrar’sOffice,"andweigheditnervously.
"Wehaveherequiteaslipofpaper."
"Openit,Amory."
"Justtobedramatic,I’llletyouknowthatifit’sblue,mynameiswithdrawnfromtheeditorialboardofthePrince,andmyshortcareerisover."
Hepaused,andthensawforthefirsttimeFerrenby’seyes,wearingahungrylookandwatchinghimeagerly.Amoryreturnedthegazepointedly.
"Watchmyface,gentlemen,fortheprimitiveemotions."
Hetoreitopenandheldtheslipuptothelight.
"Well?"
"Pinkorblue?"
"Saywhatitis."
"We’reallears,Amory."
"Smileorswear—orsomething."
Therewasapause...asmallcrowdofsecondssweptby...thenhelookedagainandanothercrowdwentonintotime.
"Blueasthesky,gentlemen...."
AFTERMATH
WhatAmorydidthatyearfromearlySeptembertolateinthespringwassopurposelessandinconsecutivethatitseemsscarcelyworthrecording.Hewas,ofcourse,immediatelysorryforwhathehadlost.Hisphilosophyofsuccesshadtumbleddownuponhim,andhelookedforthereasons.
"Yourownlaziness,"saidAleclater.
"No—somethingdeeperthanthat.I’vebeguntofeelthatIwasmeanttolosethischance."