Chapter 4
IcanhardlydescribethemoodinwhichIwasleftbythisharrowingepisode—anepisodeatoncemadandpitiful,grotesqueandterrifying.Thegroceryboyhadpreparedmeforit,yettherealityleftmenonethelessbewilderedanddisturbed.Puerilethoughthestorywas,oldZadok’sinsaneearnestnessandhorrorhadcommunicatedtomeamountingunrestwhichjoinedwithmyearliersenseofloathingforthetownanditsblightofintangibleshadow.
LaterImightsiftthetaleandextractsomenucleusofhistoricallegory;justnowIwishedtoputitoutofmyhead.Thehourgrownperilouslylate—mywatchsaid7:15,andtheArkhambusleftTownSquareateight—soItriedtogivemythoughtsasneutralandpracticalacastaspossible,meanwhilewalkingrapidlythroughthedesertedstreetsofgapingroofsandleaninghousestowardthehotelwhereIhadcheckedmyvaliseandwouldfindmybus.
Thoughthegoldenlightoflateafternoongavetheancientroofsanddecrepitchimneysanairofmysticlovelinessandpeace,Icouldnothelpglancingovermyshouldernowandthen.Iwouldsurelybeverygladtogetoutofmalodorousandfear-shadowedInnsmouth,andwishedthereweresomeothervehiclethanthebusdrivenbythatsinister-lookingfellowSargent.YetIdidnothurrytooprecipitately,fortherewerearchitecturaldetailsworthviewingateverysilentcorner;andIcouldeasily,Icalculated,coverthenecessarydistanceinahalf-hour.