Killer Cage
Chapter 1
"Shit,it’sstarted!Don’tgetyourballsblownoff,gents!"
Battle159.
Idartforward,myJacket’sDopplersettomax.
Ispotatarget,fire,duck.Ajavelinwhizzespastmyhead.
"Who’supthere?You’retoofarforward!Youwannagetyourselfkilled?"
Thelieutenantsaidthesamethingeverytime.Iwipedsandfrommyhelmet.Thundereruptedfromtheshellscrisscrossingthesky.IglancedatFerrellandnodded.
Thistimethebattlewouldend.IfIstoodbyandwatchedasYonabaruandFerrelldied,theywouldn’tbecomingback.Itallcamedowntothis.Therewasnorepeatingthisbattle.Thefearthatclawedatmygutswasn’tfearofdeath,itwasfearoftheunknown.Iwantedtothrowdownmyrifleandaxeandfindabedtohideunder.
Anormalreaction-theworldwasn’tmeanttorepeatitself.Igrinnedinspiteofthebutterfliesinmystomach.Iwasstrugglingwiththesamefeareveryonestruggleswith.Iwasputtingmylife-theonlyoneIhad-ontheline.
"You’renotactuallycaughtinatimeloop,"Ritahadexplainedtome.Myexperiencesofthe158previousbattleswerereal;itwasmewhodidn’treallyexist.Whoeveritwasthathadbeentherefortheexcruciatingpain,hopelessness,andthehotpissinhisJacket,hewasonlyashatteredmemorynow.
Ritatoldmethatfromthepointofviewofthepersonwiththememory,therewasnodifferencebetweenhavinghadanactualexperienceandonlyhavingthememoryofit.Soundedlikephilosophicalbullshittome.Ritadidn’tseemtounderstanditallthatwelleither.