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Chapter 18
"Thatisn’thardtounderstand.I’veneverfeltquitethewayIdidinSaintPeter’s,sowhatitmusthavebeenlikeforyouIcan’timagine."
"Oh,Ithinkyoucan,somewhereinside.Ifyoutrulycouldn’t,youwouldn’tbesuchafineactress.Butwithyou,Jus,itcomesfromtheunconscious;itdoesn’teruptintothoughtuntilyouneedtouseit."
Theyweresittingonasmallcouchinafarcorneroftheroom,andnoonecametodisturbthem.
Afterawhilehesaid,"I’msopleasedFrankcame,"lookingtowhereFrankwastalkingwithRainer,moreanimationinhisfacethanhisnieceandnephewhadeverseen."There’sanoldRumanianrefugeepriestIknow,"Danewenton,"whohasawayofsaying,‘Oh,thepoorone!’withsuchcompassioninhisvoice…Idon’tknow,somehowthat’swhatIalwaysfindmyselfsayingaboutourFrank.Andyet,Jus,why?"
ButJustineignoredthegambit,wentstraighttothecrux."IcouldkillMum!"shesaidthroughherteeth."Shehadnorighttodothistoyou!"
"Oh,Jus!Iunderstand.You’vegottotry,too.IfithadbeendoneinmaliceortogetbackatmeImightbehurt,butyouknowheraswellasIdo,youknowit’sneitherofthose.I’mgoingdowntoDroghedasoon.I’lltalktoherthen,findoutwhat’sthematter."
"Isupposedaughtersareneveraspatientwiththeirmothersassonsare."Shedrewdownthecornersofhermouthruefully,shrugged."Maybeit’sjustaswellI’mtoomuchofalonerevertoinflictmyselfonanyoneinthemotherrole."
