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Chapter 18
ButItellyou,ifIthoughtforoneminutemybodywouldsurviveI’dberightonthatplane."
"GotoRomeandseeRalphdeBricassartsmirking?I’dratherbedead!"
"Oh,Meggie,Meggie!Whymustyoutakeoutyourfrustrationsonhim,andonyourson?Yousaiditonceyourself—it’syourownfault.Sobeggaryourpride,andgotoRome.Please!"
"Itisn’taquestionofpride."Sheshivered."Oh,Anne,I’mfrightenedtogo!BecauseIdon’tbelieveit,Ijustdon’t!MyfleshcreepswhenIthinkaboutit."
"Andwhataboutthefacthemightn’tcomehomeafterhe’sapriest?Didthateveroccurtoyou?Hewon’tbegivenhugechunksofleavethewayhewasintheseminary,soifhedecidestoremaininRomeyoumaywellhavetotakeyourselfthereifyoueverwanttoseehimatall.GotoRome,Meggie!"
"Ican’t.IfyouknewhowfrightenedIam!It’snotpride,orRalphscoringoneoveronme,oranyofthethingsIsayitistostoppeopleaskingmequestions.Lordknows,ImissbothmymensomuchI’dcrawlonmykneestoseethemifIthoughtforaminutetheywantedme.Oh,Danewouldbegladtoseeme,butRalph?He’sforgottenIeverexisted.I’mfrightened,Itellyou.IknowinmybonesthatifIgotoRomesomethingwillhappen.SoI’mnotgoing."
"Whatcouldhappen,forpity’ssake?"
"Idon’tknow…IfIdid,I’dhavesomethingtobattle.Afeeling,howcanIbattleafeeling?Becausethat’sallitis.Apremonition.Asifthegodsaregathering."
Annelaughed.
