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Chapter 15
Hefrowned."Butitwasn’tasIhadexpected.IthoughtI’dfeelclosertoOurLord,beinginHisownChurch.Insteaditwasonlyenormousandcold.Icouldn’tfeelHim."
ArchbishopRalphsmiled."Iknowwhatyoumean.ButSaintPeter’sisn’treallyachurch,youknow.Notinthesensemostchurchesare.SaintPeter’sistheChurch.Ittookmealongtimetogetusedtoit,Iremember."
"Iwantedtoprayfortwothings,"theboysaid,noddinghisheadtoindicatehehadheardbutthatitwasn’twhathewishedtohear.
"Forthethingswhichfrightenyou?"
"Yes.IthoughtbeinginSaintPeter’smighthelp."
"Whatarethethingswhichfrightenyou,Rainer?"
"Thatthey’lldecideI’maJew,andthatmyregimentwillbesenttoRussiaafterall."
"Isee.Nowonderyou’refrightened.Isthereindeedapossibilitythey’lldecideyou’reaJew?"
"Well,lookatme!"saidtheboysimply."Whentheywerewritingdownmyparticularstheysaidthey’dhavetocheck.Idon’tknowiftheycanornot,butIsupposetheSistersmightknowmorethantheyevertoldme."
"Iftheydo,they’llnotpassiton,"saidHisGracecomfortingly."They’llknowwhythey’rebeingasked."
"Doyoureallythinkso?Oh,Ihopeso!"
"DoesthethoughtofhavingJewishblooddisturbyou?"
"Whatmybloodisdoesn’tmatter,"saidRainer."IwasbornaGerman,that’stheonlyimportantthing."
"Onlytheydon’tlookatitlikethat,dothey?"
"No."