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           Hecouldfeelheryethedidnotfeelher,notasaseparateentity;wantingtomakeherfinallyandforeverapartofhimself,agraftwhichwashimself,notasymbiosiswhichacknowledgedherasdistinct.Neveragainwouldhenotknowtheup-thrustsofbreastsandbellyandbuttocks;thefoldsandcrevicesinbetween.Trulyshewasmadeforhim,forhehadmadeher;forsixteenyearshehadshapedandmoldedherwithoutknowingthathedid,letalonewhyhedid.Andheforgotthathehadevergivenheraway,thatanothermanhadshownhertheendofwhathehadbegunforhimself,hadalwaysintendedforhimself,forshewashisdownfall,hisrose;hiscreation.Itwasadreamfromwhichhewouldneveragainawaken,notaslongashewasaman,withaman’sbody.Oh,dearGod!Iknow,Iknow!IknowwhyIkeptherasanideaandachildwithinmeforsolongaftershehadgrownbeyondboth,butwhydoesithavetobelearnedlikethis?

           Becauseatlastheunderstoodthatwhathehadaimedtobewasnotaman.Notaman,neveraman;somethingfargreater,somethingbeyondthefateofamereman.Yetafterallhisfatewashereunderhishands,struckquiveringandalightwithhim,herman.Aman,foreveraman.DearLord,couldstThounothavekeptthisfromme?Iamaman,IcanneverbeGod;itwasadelusion,thatlifeinsearchofgodhead.Areweallthesame,wepriests,yearningtobeGod?Weabjuretheoneactwhichirrefutablyprovesusmen.